Smeared Words

Ripped pages from a diary

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It was probably the most outrageous thing that I had ever done, falling in love with someone that could never love me back. It’s not that I’m asking for something in return or anything that could equate to a give-and-take scenario. I just wanted to gaze at that perfect human being for a little longer and maybe get a little step closer to the world he’s living in. I just want to have a taste of the air he’s breathing so I could actually prove to myself that he exist and that so am I.

But he’s like a fantasy. He’s someone I could only meet when I close my eyes. And tho I know from the start that this certain adoration is futile and would result to such devastation, I still chose to dream of him longer than I should have done. Obsession? Probably. But at this point I could never really blame myself. Surprisingly, I couldn’t blame myself for this one. Because I’m already at the point where I can’t even feel regret for falling in love. Because it feels good. It really does.

And maybe I’ll get even more stupid at this point for loving him even more knowing that everything’s in vain, but who cares. This is love. Probably. And maybe I’ll let it carry on a little bit more.

I know I wouldn’t even get close as to him knowing my name. But it’s okay. I have my dreams. And that’s more than enough for someone like me.

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Come here and hold me
Calm my fragile heart
You know how it hurts
Just knowing this is love
Who knows how it’ll be
Maybe tomorrow it’s gone
Maybe all we have is now
So come here and hold me
Let’s fall in love till it last

-Yume H.

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